WANT!!!

Shaking. For some reason when I’m in enough pain, I shake. It distracts me from the pain and, in some cases, works. It takes just enough edge off to keep from vomiting.

Lowering body temperature. None of this is medical fact (to my knowledge) but icepacks, cold baths, cold outdoors, and ice water work well for me when I have a migraine.

Breathing. I focus on breathing when my head is in so much pain I risk passing out. I breathe heavy and in puffs. I don’t know how to describe it in words other than “fee fee fee (inhale) puh puh puh (exhale)”. I think they practice that for women giving birth actually but it works wonders on taking off that edge.

Also. Mental bridge. I watched something on TV that led to personal mental test ‘pain digger’. Telling yourself the pain is no longer there. To imagine that there is a little man taking a shovel to the pain at the site of pain and removing it from you. It worked for me once. Other times I couldn’t think straight enough to even try.

But the solution to the migraine overall was Advil and a glass of milk. The previous steps just helped through the waiting for the liquid gels to kick in.

A Day In The Life from Harry Nesbitt on Vimeo.

What a happier life...

I made a vector based tiger in Illustrator, for school. I’m very proud of it. It’s good to finally do something different. I feel SOOO much better now.

I’ve got all kinds of work scattered about from a hospital identity package to artwork commissions(Really really late ones). I have people calling me to reformat things, re-program websites, bring more traffic to their sites, draw up plans for a three dimensional displays, touch up prom images, and more things that I’m too tired to think of right now...

I guess I need to manage my time. I’m looking at the jobs as a whole and just need to tackle them one thing at a time.

I apologize to those who have paid me in advance and only seem to be getting little effort from me. I’m just scattered thin...

Yeeeah. My collection is growing.

I don’t need intentions. I NEED RESULTS!

I’ll work on my commissions today
Then I’ll clean and wax my car
Then I’ll add to my design portfolio
Then I’ll work on a fantasy landscape piece
Then I’ll work on a new art style
Then I’ll finish my school project
I’ll save money for the day I move out
I’ll work harder and make more money
That, AND I’ll get a second job
I’ll open an online business
I’ll touch up this photo for a friend
I’ll make this logo for my aunt
I’ll convert this 24 page PDF file for $20

Ask me how much of that I actually got accomplished. None.
I’ve have a game plan I just don’t have the system to stay on task and make it work.

I’ll keep working on it. It’s a matter of discipline. I think I can do this. I need to cut the distractions out of my life though...

Yesterday was awesome. Morgan and I had breakfast at the Waffle House. That was good. I had mushrooms on everything! ^0^
Then we went home and he taught me chess. I finally had the patience to learn. He had this really cool oriental chess board with art carved into each checker. It’s memorizing.
Anyway, it didn’t take me long to put up a good fight. My one miff was when Morgan would tell me a play after using it on me. Like, “Oh, I got you. Pawns can attack backwards.”
“Arrrrah! You didn’t tell me that! Gimme my piece back!”
“This is how you learn, Baby girl.”
“You better-“
“Okay, okay. There. Have your piece back. Feel better?”
“Yes. <.<”

But we played for about four hours. I LOVE it. Who’s up for some online chess?

Does approach affect the elements of creativity?
Focusing on one thing, does it cripple you as an artist? Medium, approach, subject matter...
Being really good at only one element or at least trying multiple elements... Maybe I need to get out of the box and learn something new. Human anatomy study, airbrush, costuming... Maybe just new subject matter... I think I’m getting bored with my art... Something needs to change...

I am in a creative rut. I can't seem to draw ANYTHING! I got this brand new Wacom and haven't even put out a final piece with it. I tried switching back to traditional sketching(something I've opted out of my art for quite some time) but I found myself even more frustrated. I have commissioners who are waiting breathlessly for ANYTHING but I end up messing up and throwing the pen. I'm trying to find elements of inspiration that may be missing. Music, games, writing, peers/friends... When I was in highschool, THAT was when I was the most creatively charged. I was in an artistic school so there was always this creative energy toiling about. I had a posse of friends, I wrote novels, I illustrated EVERYTHING, and I was constantly growing. Now I feel like I am in an all-round rut... No growth. No spiritual growth, no financial growth, no creative growth... I'm a lil' mess and I can't seem to figure out WHY!

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Hehe Rocketbird. Nuff said.

I’m opening a premium CafePress account. I got this awesome deal with my Wacom tablet for five years free premium account with CafePress! SO, if you have ANY ideas for me, by all means, throw them my way because I will be making some designs in my immediate future. That is... if I can find the time... I haven’t even had a real chance to play with my new tablet...

I’m in a tablet pickle if anyone would like to help me make up my mind:

For my birthday my parents got me a genius g-pen f610
http://www.geniuseshop.com/index.asp?PageAction=VIEWPROD&ProdID=131
This sucker has a 6” x 10” active workspace and is thinner than its own owner’s manual.
It was roughly $100 and they said I could trade it in if it’s not right for me.

The only problem is I’m Wacom spoiled.

The pen is top-heavy from the battery and has NO ERASER. I can’t hover around I HAVE to be touching the active area for it to recognize me. The pressure transition is pixilated on Adobe… I’m just not digging it.

NOW

I could mesh my Best Buy gift cards and my refund money to get the Wacom Intuos4
http://www.wacom.com/intuos/index.php

Smaller work area but I’m used to that. Other than that and the price, I can’t find anything bad to say about it. I WANT it but I don’t want to give up the slim and big Genius… But I can’t have my cake and eat it too...

I have a lil 3x5 Graphire now
http://www.wacom.com/graphire/index.php

Is it worth it?

Happy 9-9-09! This will never happen ever again so enjoy it!

"All propaganda has to be popular and has to accommodate itself to the comprehension of the least intelligent of those whom it seeks to reach. How fortunate for governments that the people they administer don't think."
-Adolf Hitler

Also, 9 was AWESOME! I'm going to be drawing that mechanical cat all day!

If you thought Disney was furry, THINK AGAIN.


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Attempting live, indoor lawn. Don't stop me.

Drama kept me out till 2am. As I was driving home, there was a Forerunner upside-down in the ditch at the end of our property. I jumped out and called “Hello! Can anyone hear me? Hello?” jumped back in my car and drove the corner home. I woke up my parents and called 911. Mom drove her truck to the end of our road and someone in a jacked-up pickup was pulling the Forerunner out. 911 got off the phone with me and I ran down there. The moment I go to jump in my mother’s truck the Forerunner comes skidding around the corner and nearly mows me down by less than a foot. They spun around and my mother gunned it. Mom’s been chased before she’s experienced at these kinds of things. The truck chased us a few blocks and we headed home. 911 called back and told us that no units found the accident. I handed the phone over to Dad and he droned about the situation to various police units but no one was busted. I went to bed shortly after… crazy night… stupid drunks… I thought I was helping someone… pfft…

I want to feel accomplished.
I want to feel satisfied with my art.
Why can I never be happy with my art?!
What is MY style?! *stomps off and draws in several thousand styles*

In other news: I have a new face. Ò.Õ (thank you Europe)

Music: Muse - Suppermassive Black Hole
http://www.fileden.com/files/2007/7/16/1270376/Muse%20-%20Supermassive%20Black%20Hole.mp3